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too true cui, perhaps that is what i need to do:
1) you lie to me time and again and that night you contemplated doing it again– but i forgive you.
2) there is too much work to be done, 5000-word essay, Japanese level II and III– but the holidays are upon us, and all in all you’ve had a good term. rejoicify (:
3) there is a strange loneliness that comes at the end of a long day, and the threat of dissolving to tears. it is the strange, sad alienation of winter, and the melancholy it inflicts on the people around you. i wish people could be happy, i wish they could be simple, and satisfied and whole in themselves — but cheer, child. it is not your responsibility, and there is one who can offer them more than you ever could. so hold on to the promise.
hold on to it, child. take control of every thought, and he will not let you down.
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project 365 starts yesterday (the 14th. it is a strange date, but it had to happen sometime.) the official photoblog will be set up soon, with the backlog uploaded ;)
i should be sleeping but there are too many voices in my head keeping me awake.
people tend to assume familial permutations in relationships– some people are instinctively mothering, or big-sisterly, or instinctively the youngest the child who has tantrums going, “look at me! look at me! i am precious!” sometimes people are different things to different people, and it is a comforting thing; it brings intimacy, it brings warmth.
but sometimes family relationships are a wall you put up to assume closeness that is in actuality absent, or to ignore a closeness you don’t wish to have.
hmm.
intrusive thoughts at the end of a long week. i need more time to myself to sort things out. feelings aren’t a faithful friend et al.
but don’t worry– God is good. (:
(but human beings are not, and usually, it is our fellow-sheep that we have troubles dealing with. or vice versa.)
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ETA: to the people coming to this blog by googling my name and my university– can you at least leave me a courtesy comment so i know who’s reading this, you kay-pohs.
and don’t think i can’t see what you guys google to get to this blog. :P
